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Estimated reading time: 9 minutes

 

Rejected by a Therapist

Rejected by a Therapist. Me too.

My therapist handballed me to someone else. Then THEY rejected me too.

Good afternoon. My name is Rebecca and I am officially a mental health reject.

It is true. It can happen quite a bit and I rarely hear it discussed.

You’ve been through the whole “I have bared my soul to another human.” trauma at your normal medical care provider. Endured the usual “Why do you think you have PTSD/Depression/Anxiety questions which have you questioning yourself or wanting to walk out.

But you stayed, you survived and you have the name of a potential mental health saviour firmly clutched in your fist.

You make that first appointment after hanging up on the receptionist a few times.

You cancel or postpone a few times.

You stalk the therapist on the internet.

You wonder if perhaps you are overreacting about needing help and if this is something you can fix yourself.

You might even wait a few months and try some serious meditation, clean eating, juicing, walking and anything else that you see online that has helped someone else.: Running naked in the woods. Lighting a truckload of sage. Burning photos of people who’ve wronged you. Eating full heads of garlic. Juicing anything you can fit down that juicer spout. Bathing in rose petals. Not bathing. You get my drift. 

But — no. Nadda. Nothing. Still anxious. 

So. You find yourself outside this therapist’s rooms — or waiting for them on Skype. You run through the speech that you have practised in your head a million times. 

The speech that runs a little like, “I don’t know — I am probably overreacting — maybe it’s me. It could be normal. It’s not that bad.”.

And……..

At the end of your session.

Feeling totally empty, drained and hanging out in the wind you finally lift your head to see…

A look on the therapist’s face that seems to suggest that they are also feeling totally empty, drained and totally at a loss as to how to pull you out of the wind.

Maybe your therapist is trying extremely hard to maintain a veneer of professionalism. In which case they will lean backwards. They will nod quietly and the nod will gradually will turn into a side-to-side movement that looks like they are definitely saying “Hell no.”

Not the response you were going for. Gulp. 

This person was supposed to say “This is not a problem. We can deal with this and I have your back.”

Instead, you hear “Wow. (I kid you not)”. 

Then…

“You certainly have had an interesting time. Right now, I don’t feel that I am the best-equipped person to help you. Let me ask around and get back to you with some names.”

Again- not the response you were going for.

I am going to be the devil’s advocate a little bit here. I have been a patient for the better part of my life and studying or working as a therapist for 30 years. The one thing I will say is that finding a therapist who you gel with is a bitch.

I have huge respect for any therapist who has enough integrity to admit that they feel like they have the wrong skill set to deal with a particular person.

I would much rather be told that than to be someone’s experiment. 

But it is a hell of a thing to be on the receiving end of “the dismissal”. 

And it is that that I really want to talk about with you today.

This rejection happens at a bad time.

At a time when you are already at breaking point.

A time when you already feel like damaged goods.

A time when you feel like you might have finally found a safe place and that your loved ones will not have to deal with the “burden” that you currently are.

At this time when you feel so damaged and so different and so rejected, everything you have ever thought about yourself seems to be being confirmed by this therapist’s words.

Maybe you are too much. You are not worth saving. Your problems are more than anyone can handle. 

There are some things I would like you to print out and keep with you if this has been an experience for you.

 

  • This is NOT unusual. This happens and although you might not want to hear it now, it is infinitely better than having six months’ worth of therapy with a therapist before realising that they are not a good fit or do not have the skills to deal with your issues. This happens too and then also involves not only the loss of your hope and dignity but also a substantial amount of money.
  • This has happened to me at least thirty times that I can think of. See — I have forgotten some. Yay. Here I still stand.
  • There is no damage that is too much. You are not too damaged to be helped or loved or to deserve everything that anyone else does. And don’t shake your head at me that I don’t understand just how damaged you are. I do. If you were my client my thoughts here would be:
  • “If you say that you are too damaged to deserve the best therapist for you, a life of love, a feeling of safety, that what you have been through has made you less of a person. If you honestly believe that. Then I defy you to look at a photo of yourself as a child and tell that child that they do not deserve love and safety and the best help possible.”
  • YOU are not damaged. Your essence is not damaged. Look at you. You were amazing enough to google this stuff and wonder if perhaps there is another person who might be able to help you.
  • Look at you. You went to that first appointment. You got those words out of your mouth. To a stranger. You are an amazing, amazing person. You did something you were so scared of. You let someone in. Hell. You are a bloody stormtrooper. You opened up. And it will never be as hard as that first time. Trust me.
  • There is a therapist out there for you. There really is. And I truly wish that there was a little more education given about this being a process when you are given that first referral. Even though you feel like you are at the end of your rope, taking the time to find this right fit is so incredibly important.
  • Let’s just call your current emotional state a storm. The storm comes in. Rips your house roof off. Makes your house unstable. Spins you around. Spits you out. Your GP is like the SES or crisis management. They come in. Put up some tarps, make sure nothing else is in immediate danger and tell you where to go find some help to fix the structural issues. They’ll offer a name. Maybe some tools in the form of medication but you will have to return to your life and wait for a bit. Expecting the emergency services to rebuild your house right then and there is unrealistic. Just like expecting a GP or initial therapists you see to be able to adequately meet your emotional/psychological needs. You would be incredibly lucky if this happens.
  • You would expect to hear from a few tradesmen that they were too busy. If they told you that it was not their area of expertise you would be grateful that an electrician had not tried to fix your roof. You would ask around for good people and you would, if you are not panicking too much or irresponsible, get several quotes. Same finding a therapist. 
  • What feels like rejection is a natural part of finding someone who is going to be the right fit and is in NO WAY WHATSOEVER a reflection on you. A psychologist is not a psychologist is not a psychologist. We are all really different in our approaches, availability, capability and training.
  • Most good therapists I know are available to email or call for a quick consultation prior to a visit. Get a friend to do it if you are not able, but write down a really quick summary of what you are wanting to treat and get a standard email going on. You don’t have to bear your soul but get some facts down and make sure you are honest about the severity of your issues. That is where you might need a friend to make sure you aren’t minimising your problems or distress.
  • I find this method great because the phone or email approach allows me to maintain some anonymity while still reaching out. When I get the “I am very sorry but” response I take it a little less personally delivered over the phone or by email. IT is a mind trick-but it works. Sending an email can help you get a feeling about a clinic or practitioner. The way that you will be treated often comes across very quickly. In manner, tone and availability. You can also get a friend to send and open the emails and completely shield you if you need that on a certain day.
  • If it feels too much- pull out the photo of yourself as a child and I promise you, you will regain your resolve to get help for that kid. We all know that most people who have been damaged find it easier to help others than help themselves. So — do it for that little child.
  • Finally, full disclosure here. I write this post having just heard the “I’m sorry but…” speech myself five times in the past five days. I think I may even have an email sitting in my inbox with another rejection. So-big breath-I will be taking my own advice. 

Finding the right help is enormously important and worth every moment of disappointment that it might take.

Hang in there.

You will find your person.

Trust me.

I have.

And I am waiting right here for you.

Big Love

Bex

 

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